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1 Corinthians 12:21-26

²¹The eye cannot say to the hand, “I don’t need you!” And the head cannot say to the feet, “I don’t need you!” ²²On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, ²³and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, ²⁴while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honor to the parts that lacked it, ²⁵so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. ²⁶If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.

While the bible says everything that needs to be said… I’ll just share my personal interpretation and application of it. I may be wrong, but my conviction is one with experience that makes me confident that my take on it is accurate.

Years ago, my family was a victim of a painful church-split, and at the time my relationship with God was distant, very far from honest and real on my part. This experience drove me into a search for the truth, and a love for the truth mixed with an angry, bitter view of the church, and to all those in place of leadership inside and outside the body who were using their status for personal gain, even when unintentional and just a weak moment in their personal life.

“The heart is deceitful above all things, And desperately wicked; Who can know it?” In a world where individuals are extremely busy and self-absorbed in all their striving for whatever end, I find it is hard to most of us to stop, and take a step back to look into the heart. We live in a world that blows with the wind, if not, desperately grasping for it, escapism, identity crises.

The desire for unity and peace in any arena is a God-given desire that is in the heart of every person, regardless of how hard their heart is, even for the atheist. A heart may be walled up and the desire is deep within, but everybody wants it in their life. But in the church… or the “body of Christ,” it has become a place of striving for many, to find some sort of balance, a united vision… a feeling of being “on the right path” as a body of believers.

Until Jesus returns, the only right path the body of believers will have, is Jesus. No formula, order, organization, event, style of teaching, theology, interpretation, worship service, etc, will have any weight or “right path” unless it is centered only in Jesus.

Obviously this sounds elementary, but the heart IS deceitful. It is often hard to immediately see if something being done is to make the individual feel better about where their flock of believers are moving, growing (in numbers), or how their formula for evangelism is working. It can quickly become about a person or thing instead of Jesus if things aren’t kept in line with Jesus, and always given up to Him. If it’s always focused on Jesus, the fullness of why Jesus is so important and so necessary. Once our personal interests get involved, it becomes pious, self-righteous and self-seeking.

Each group of people, geographic region of believers, individuals, etc, are different parts of this body. While one part of the Body is meant to be the mouth (evangelists, worship leaders, anything that Jesus would say to be the mouth), others are meant to be the legs, whether that means the workers who make it all work financially, administratively, anything that keeps the body moving forward. The eyes could mean prayer, and an awareness to the spiritual and natural climates of creation. The only one who can be the whole body, is Christ himself. He is the perfect intercessor with Wisdom, accomplishing the Father’s will, and is moving and doing great things all over the earth, even through us.

It takes laborers doing their part, and choosing with the grace of God to be a vessel for Christ. It takes complete surrender, and freedom from the bondage sin. The apostle Paul describes everything needed for the individual to be free when he speaks of captivating the thoughts. EVERYTHING negative, starts in the mind, and when it becomes an action or words slipping from the tongue, it begins its destructive course.

God is the one who is sanctifying us in his own timing, on his terms. We will eventually see our role and purpose individually in our days, even if we are not the last generation before His return. As long as we keep our relationship with Him honest and repentant, He will guide us to the light, and the way He desires the body to operate.

Throughout history He has been doing a great job at showing us how we so foolishly abused the light He gave us. (Think of the catholic crusades). See how far we have come? The level of maturity (sanctification) that has come from our blunt abuse of the Scripture to getting closer and closer to pure, undefiled religion, coupled with the knowledge our need of a real relationship with Him, instead of the pious order of Catholicism! Only God can be given the glory to the revelation of our weaknesses, as He continues to shine the light on this dark, dark world.

I just got back from my first trip as an evangelist, and now know that this is where I am called to be. We are all evangelists in our personal spheres of influence. But to be one who travels, and reaches out to the world is one God makes known and lets them know in their personal journey. We all have roles, and will find it as long as we surrender all to Him. Our personal dreams, desires, idols and sin puts God in a box, and He is so kind to respect it, and let us chase the wrong path until we return to Him.

Eventually, the body will be One… and until then…. fight the good fight of Faith! While we are painfully divided, only one thing keeps us together, and that is Jesus… lets give up our devices of sin, call it sin, and let Him pull us back together. He paid for it in full.

The United States lies to waste,
with wasteful ties to lies of late.
Haste and hate, came through the gates,
and Fate so nigh, it might not wait.

Viewer beware.

What I realized today, was that when I post on this blog, it’s usually in a way that is just… hasty.

So those of you i’ve tortured with terrible grammar, repetitiveness, and poor structure, behold… a vow to embrace patience and wisdom before publishing anymore posts on this blog.

I tend to just think about a topic, write it, then post it, with absolutely no planning, proofreading, or professional degree. I don’t structure it in a way that articulates a point in a way that gives the reader the ability  just move right through the post and with ease, understand what I’m saying without getting bored, or having to re-read a sentence because it was just to thick, or even a run-on sentence.

So consider this the last, hasty post from me.

With the misinformation from both sides in our government, there is always the fear-tactic that keeps that side emotional and reactionary.

Liberals are too trusting of their leaders, thus adopting a radical humanistic ideology based on ideas with good intent (i’ve said that alot now, but that is what it is).

Conservatives are too hypersensitive and fearful of socialism, while moderates just don’t really care, as long as the nation doesn’t fall apart and their own life keeps steady.

This was clearly written (and very witty) by one on the far right.

The end is a bit inappropriate, but it’s the typical, pathetic bashing of the other side in a witty negative way. But it does illustrate, and over-exaggerate points that are worth observing.

“If you can’t convince them, confuse them.” -Harry Truman

Manipulators and control-needy people often use the tactic of confusing their people or person to produce a reaction that best fills the satisfying feeling of being in control, and the peace of mind that your followers, children, co-workers, etc, are loyal to you and your stance on any given subject, lifestyle, theology, religion, etc.

Some manipulate out of fear of losing the control because of pain and mistreatment, and the feeling that they are pioneering the right way of thinking, or the right way to do things.

You can look at various historical figures who operated out of pain and mistreatment, which can be translated to the phrase “bitter envy, and self deceit” because of that pain or mistreatment that the individual experienced. Hitler for one, was an artist, mistreated, rejected, not just by the art community and the colleges, but even those close to him, his father. The striving a young man does to get his father’s blessing and honor for career choices is a journey that helps define a man. Everyone knows the history that follows, and grotesque nature of manipulation and control over multitudes of people.

Manipulation and Control is an area of struggle for everybody. Some are crafty, some are just emotional. Some just don’t know that they’re really manipulating to get what they want, at other peoples expense.

I’ve seen it so many times… it’s usually painted with a language of strong conviction, coupled with emotional baggage, and then a great ultimatum. Sometimes it comes with underlying leverage, that makes the person or group of people feel bad for being in agreement, or any sort of opposition to it. Out of pity, even a subtle accusation of disloyalty, naivety, or even persuaded with eloquent language that sounds convincing and seemingly wise…. they submit, and give in to the manipulator’s demands and/or requests.

Then there’s the violent fear tactic. It’s when the people or person have been so inundated and controlled by the manipulator’s words and belief system, that they live in fear of abuse, death, or isolation (excommunication).

There are so many ways people manipulate people, and its a sick, disgusting reality.

If God is sovereign, and you believe in God, let His people go… cast away your so-called wisdom, and give the people dignity to embrace their own journey, and you live yours.

While doing laundry, I just suddenly had a couple thoughts on dynamics of what happiness seems to be and what it is. So everything written here are just mere thoughts in a vague boring structure, almost as if they were proverbs or conclusions of thought, but really it’s just a live, on-the-go verbal processing. My right pinky fell asleep several times while blogging this from my iPhone.

Hype and excitement will not produce happiness, it creates expectation. The expectations of an individual are what helps the individual respond genuinley to whatever subject or medium in which the individual is recieving information whether visually, audibly or just intuitivley.

The response of someone with low expectations of a film will be much higher than usual, while someone with high expectation grumbles or scoffs at it, (even though on the grand scale it was reviewed as mediocre). The mood of the individual prior the viewing of a film, event, book, conversation dramatically gets in the way regardless of the prior expectations and quality of the information exchange.

A facade of giddy happiness is in fact escapism to seek out a warm and fuzzy feeling of belonging but usually ending without that void filled, it’s a sign of the need of freedom from the bondage of this identity crisis (or facade). There is much striving in an individual caught up in a facade.

Happiness is not the feeling of pleasure of laughter in a conversation, that was just a fun conversation that felt good. You could say in that moment you were happy, but happiness is the freedom from an idenity crisis, a firm resolve in who you are, full of hope and no fear of tommorow, free from selfishness and full of meekness. Real joy.

Let me start with my idea of the needed remedy. A pure & undefiled healthcare reform would be a system where the federal government has little involvment, but a Healthcare Act created by the people and our representatives that organize funds on the local and state level, again, with very little federal influence. This Act would create a system of volunteer and paid doctors, nurses, and the other necessities that are mobile in their city or entire state, which seek out through well funded marketing, to reach as much of those in need as possible, and completely free for the patient. These kinds of organizations already exist, but they are usually private, non-profit organizations funded privately, and free of state, local, and or federal tax. We also need to raise the bar of funding for these private organizations. State Government run entities should be allowed, but they wont be expected of the local govt, as tax benefits for such services from private organizations will energize private organizations to help out more.

The heated debate of Healthcare Reform has taken many turns, (often just spinning in circles), but there is a gradual growth in the debate, even though it seems a majority of democrats & the liberals are pushing really hard to get their version of it set in stone.

It seems the division ideologically in this nation and government is so great that there can be no friendly, constructive debate on the issue. Few are teachable, and teachable leaders in the representative end of the government are the necessity in getting anything honorable and good established. Those on the platform and their politics are like a squeezed sponge over a watercolor painting. You get a vague idea of what you can see, but its one great blurry mess.

There is some good intent in the pursuit of this reform, but it was never in need of such a massive bill. All that is needed is a clear debate, in plain english, on how to fund healthcare for those who are poor, and do not have circumstances that enable them to take care of themselves in areas of life that most of us can.

The danger of letting the government pursue this reform without our involvement as a people, is that it is OUR money that they are taking from us, and we’re too trusting of an eloquent presentation with language that makes you feel like you’re hearing something good, but in fact, you have no idea what they’re really saying. They are just making your heart feel warm and fuzzy with the noble truth and idea of helping those who are in need.

The ideal is that people will help out of the desire to do good, but how do you inspire 300 million people which their busy lives pursuing are the american dream in the way they see fit? The human heart desires to do good, but is too self seeking to labor wholeheartedly and serve with meekness.

Proverbs 13:4  The soul of a lazy man desires, and has nothing;
But the soul of the diligent shall be made rich.